Living like Cats (pg 24)

Jan 19th 2011
Ok so they (Lahey) did say that I would only want to eat and sleep living like a Cat. So far since last week all
I have accomplished is:

Nap 4 hours, eat something high in protein awake for 2 hours, nap for 4 hours, watch tv that I can not comprehend anything, take a shower that makes me need to nap immediately after for 1 hour. Than it is eat and sleep some more. I try to avoid mirrors or perhaps it is that I can no longer be seen in mirrors since Igor the anesthesiologist got to me, hmmm Vampire? Nah hate blood, but holy mess when I look in the mirror I see a super white almost glistening white chick, ya not pretty, avoidance is key! I definitely try to force my self to do more, my brain says get moving lazy ass, but my body she feels like broken doll parts.
Cindy did get me out the house last Saturday for 3 hours, my eyebrows looked like Snufalupagus's sister, so we tamed them and she took me to Not Your Average Joe's for lunch, mid way through she knew it was time to go I was ready to face plant in my plate and just snooze. It felt good to get out, to breath in the air and be grateful for what I have and who I have and not once think of the have not's.  My son came home from his Hobo Outdoor Woodsman Camping trip down the Florida Keys, he left right after my surgery and his sense of adventure, wisdom and confidence along with him sending me pictures helped me through some rough healing moments too.

Tommy's Camp view from across the way.

O yeah I have my moments when I cry like I am 5 cause it hurts and the shear gravity of this journey when you stop and think about it really is something words can not describe but some how tears make it all ok, if that makes any sense. None of it is sadness I just  truly I have no words to explain so I guess crying is what gets me through to the next day since I have no patience!!

My scar is healing pretty nicely, my yukky smelly booboo near my belly button has healed up and I am bandage free and o yeah I show my scar to anyone who asks, lol, cause well I am not shy and it is a testament to the miracles that can happen if you only just believe. Someone said to me once, "when you gonna get it, no one cares and no one is watching" Well I care and a I am always watching and that is what matters because it only takes one person to care to make a change.
I like to think someday I will write a book about my eclectic life I have lived, but I am not ready to write it all yet the best is still to come, of that I am sure. So for now I will just blog and live like a cat..........