Father's Day 2011

Dear Dad,

Happy Father's Day!  I am kinda tapped out on idea's of what to get you this year, I think I may have out done myself in the gift giving department this year (next year  for sure I will get you whatever manly power tool you want) plus Hallmark just does not seem to have a fitting card for where we have been over the last year......

From where we were a year ago to where we are today it has been a hell of journey especially these last 7 months. Although sometimes I know it feels like it is never ending for you.  I also know how hard this has been on you as a parent, being one myself I too am not sure how I would have handled this with Tommy if it were me. I like to believe that I was able to do what I did because of the parents that brought me into this world to begin with and that the same would be done for me if things were reversed.
I have not revisited this blog in sometime, though I tell the story of us I still can not go back and read my own words yet, it is still very surreal. I am grateful that between us we can laugh about all the drug induced sillyness,the 4am John Wayne movies,protein shakes, the "eew that's so gross", gurgling, sleeping, can't sleep, hospital smell, miserable itching, pulling and overwhelming need to just swear it out, because unless others shared our pain, it is just easier to bitch it out to each other. 
So for right now all I  know how to say to you is Thank you.
Thank you for wanting to stay here, thank you for fighting with me to keep you here, thank you for not giving up, thank you for allowing me,  thank you for trusting, thank you for having faith in me, thank you for allowing your self to find courage in the face of fear.  Most of all thank you for being my Father and after all these years becoming my friend.  I love you Dad!!