Blizzard!?! O Mother Nature you are sooo not funny!! (pg15)

(written from another waiting room at Lahey)Uhuh so we get a dumping of snow,all our appointments are moved to Tuesday. For Christmas what I thought that my son had was from eating something bad turned out to be a stomach bug which he so kindly shared with me! Ah yes 24 hours of porcelain god worship and hardly any sleep. I am quite the tired and cantankerous one today while at Lahey having Pre-op labs and more redundant meetings. I met my surgeon the other set of hands (I will fill in his info when I am so cranky)that will be working on me tomorrow. He took me into another room for private chat to let me know that it is ok to opt out of surgery for tomorrow since I feel like shit. Part of me says yes cause I feel horrible but the other part of me says o hell no I have things to and I want to done with this and move on. This journey has been long and just for today I feel beat,weak and wanting to just be left alone. I don't want to talk to anyone anymore about what if's and all the other crap that goes with it. Just for today I need rest and solitude and tomorrow is Go Time. We are staying at hotel over night which was not my idea though it makes sense. I would prefer my own bed on the night before the scariest endeavor I have ever decided to do. So thank you everyone for your well wishes, the next time you hear from me will be when we are on the other side of this and beginning the new journey of recovery.