Perspective... Some Results... (pg4)

12/1/2010 Well after having been told what I felt was a terrible news and completely made me fall apart. Honestly after going through so much testing and being told I have auto immune disease was scary for me and I was sad for my father, thinking great I got his hopes up and my family and now I can't give him his health back cause I got something broken with me.  It was about to get even more overwhelming. I was not mentally prepared for what was to come next with the testing in Phase 2 part B.  The worse for me was having my Stepmum with me the whole time, while I love her and she is my best friend of 27 years I might add, this is way to much for her. I mean think about it, she has to be strong for my Dad and has attended all most all of his doctors appointments and has heard every worse case scenario. She has had to find some way to keep a balance and if she does not end up in a rubber room after all this is will be a miracle, of course we all joke that perhaps we should sit around and pop some Benadryl and have a giggle feast.  She is the strongest woman I know and thank god she has a sense of humor cause between my father and I we are pretty twisted. This process is so over whelming that some days I think that to survive this you need a sense of humor, which they should probably tell you this when they tell you "hey you need a new organ". Not sure how other people get through this with out laughter. So it begins steps closer to knowing will I or won't I.